Past

The summer is almost over...
Every one seems to be disolving into a dark tinted past.

School is going to start and somehow i am already facing the reality that i am really going to be an art teacher. I had my teaching demo today. For my standards it was definitely a crappy demo. I had no eye contact with the students, my voice wasn't loud enough, i forgot some things to say, in a middle of a sentence i just drifted off... but i guess the school is really in need of new teacher that even though it was so crappy they said it was ok.

I got to so many forms to fill out, worhsops to attend, people to see (divsion chair, principals, students, the HRD etc.) and i have to smile A LOT. I hope i will survive the school year.

At least i would be preoccupied thinking about lesson plans and how to kiss ass with the school officials and i guess i hope i would not think that i am missing a lot in life. Honestly i am sad. Honey is busy with job hunting and a new bf. Chella is going to be busy with basically same reasons. Dodie is still definitely busy with Kitz and the Katribu. Megg will start school soon. Kyle will go back to Manila. Rachel as usual busy with everything. hmmm....hay my few friends. i on the hand is stuck with my students. I really need to have new friends.

my passion is burning out...
my future is fading...
everyone is leaving me...
all i have is my dreams...