Tinted Specs

Another empty page
I’m drowning in the stillness of white
A minute ago I had pressed the delete button
Trying to undo the unwritten
The white blank screen does not cleanse me
It reminds me of my emptiness
What will I write tomorrow
When I died yesterday
And born today
I do not want to think
I do not want to remember
I woke up today in a nightmare
But my nightmares are sugarcoated
I could never deny my dark side
It fuels my insane creativity
No one could change me
Although I am better
But that does not mean I am less corrupt
I do not want someone holding me
I do not want someone loving me
Kiss me goodbye
I set you free
Swim in a future untainted by me
Let me cross the unlit streets
Let me wander in the dark
You had shown me the light
But you didn’t know that I was wearing tinted specs
Someone said that I love too much my freedom
Close your eyes
Count to ten
One
Two
Three…

Ten
You won’t see me
On the ground I left something
A piece of torn flesh
Beating
BreathingEternally loving